Grown up or immature?

To be honest, I am pretty scared of new jobs, new environment, new this new that. Lol, I don't know, prolly not much a "yay change is coming" person. Oh well!

Previously, I had been upset over grades. Oh ya, tomorrow, grades is finally out. At 12 midnight. I can't wait. Lol I prolly would have scored lousy. Till now, I am still cringing a little at how I did the papers. It was super bad. At least in other semester I went exam with clear head, knowing what I know and was clear on what I know. This semester...enough ranting. xD. Lets just get over with it. If Heaven wants me to redo my last semester, let it be. I shall properly enjoy my school time this round :D

And...our friends had planned for a BK trip. I had to ask my dad. >.> I mean of this age already, I am super sure of a Yes. Well it came back as a No. Lol. Got upset and was pretty much hating on dad for 3 days. Lol. Hating means, ignoring him at home, not greeting him and etc. Lol. I was bad? :(

When I started hating, I feel really bad. I don't feel like happy. Its not like "Yes! He caught my glare and I am still ignoring him". No. Lol. It was more of a madly internal conflict:
1 - I know I should respect him. We should all respect our parents
2 - I am still unhappy. I can't get rid of the hate. Loathe, or dislike. Who let him control me? Who gave him the power! I am myself, I want my freedom!
3 - Yet after I hated him for that period of time, I was feeling guilty too. Lol, like. How do I come down from hating. How can I stop hating in a less awkward way? I hate coming back home too during this period. :( It was such a bad period for me. :(.

I did it anyway. Lol

So I had shared this little story with a few, I asked for what they would have done, or what they had done. I had it thought out fully too. No one shall stand in my way asdj;lasdjlfaslfak Loooool. Okok. I mean, I should grab my own freedom, why let someone deny me of it. It shall be something I can fight for.

Just yesterday, my boss at my current place, gave me a really nice piece of advice. Encouraged me to talk to my dad [have not done so!], in a peaceful way, to assure and convince him to say give the go. I mean, like even if he said no? I should still fight for it, but then, don't argue back.

It was a really nice piece of advice, staying neutral and acting like a grown up instead of trying to hate him and feeling miserable for 3 days.

Reflecting on myself and attitude and ways of handling problems. How did I become so immature? :(